Identity is not label

* Who am I?? I get this a lot..
Am I the quarks that dance forever between a field and particle?
Am I the microbe and bacteria that so outnumber my cells in this body?
Am I the molecules that form this shape of a homo sapien me?
Am I the body(with a expiration date) I was born with?
Am I the color of my skin??
Am I the genitals I was born with?
Am I the engineer as my degree paper says?
Am I the cog. scientist as my “other degree” says?
Am I the data scientist my job title says?
Am I the Daddy my daughter calls me?
Am I the psycho i was nicknamed by some of my classmates?
Am I the “terror” another bestowed label?
Or “nandy” yet another label?
Am I the tamilian I was born and grew up in?
Am I the indian the country i was born?
Am I the partner I married?
Am I the value I create?
Am I the revenue I earn for my company?
Am I the writings I do?
Am I the thoughts I have?
Am I the religion I was born into?
Or chose?
Am I the tri-brains some peeps propagate as truth about human brain?
Am I my depression or dark times?
Am I the clown/joker I play when I am dodging pain
Am I the small star dust ?
Am I the generalist i use to market myself?
Am I the nerd — my most surest identity
Am I the labels i was born with or bestowed upon me?


The only reply I am comfortable replying with put a integral (or 4)
across space, time energy mass and attention.

Alternative Ending:

Please go plug/fuck yourself into the Total perspective Vortex

~ Aang Jie

Difficult Predictions about the Future

Disclaimers:

  • — I am making these predictions for the short-medium term (short– < 5 years medium —10-30 years)
  • — I am deliberately not choosing to distinguish between the short and medium term to keep the amount rigour and research I’ll need low/manageable to my free time
  • — Some of these are part of optimistic/wishful thinking on my part, I’ll strive to be clear, but can’t promise the boundaries to be very clean.
  • — Skin in the game,(I don’t expect to benefit from any of this in the short-term. In the long-term I might, but that’s very unsure. This is primarily an exercise for the self more than anything else).
  • —- My political priors are set in something of the American idea of left, but I find the simplistic notion meaningless(for ex: I’m a economical conservative).
  • —- I am not going to go to the extent of creating links or citations. The motivated can google and find it out themselves.

One short thing before we begin, I paraphrased the quote from a famous person. Read on till the end to find who it is.

Predictions:

  • — The warming will accelerated due to the second-order effects of global warming like El Nino disruption, arctic(& antartic??) ice melt, trapped methane release etc..
  • — There will be more pandemic/epidemic level medical emergency situations(due to release of ancient pathogens, ecological balance disruption etc..) which in turn will add to the emissions via plastic pollution and pharma(and logistics)-industry led emissions.
  • —- The feedback cycle of new industrial plant-> local micro climate warming-> health degenerative effects-> economical difficulties will become obvious enough to trigger a bunch of lawsuits against the major contributors to climate change.
  • —- There will be a movement of environment protection terrorists, who will have to fight against the oligarchy controlled government/law enforcement trying to progress the more planet-destroying “infrastructure development.”
  • —- Media will become more and more biased (and more partisan)until, eventually there will be technologies that aid in collating different media sources trying to infer their prior biases.(A sort of view from everywhere) Ideally this technology would have to be de-centralized to be the most effective, but that’s not a easy thing to do. So instead we’ll have big media houses that have their own biases and collate news sources with confirmation bias.
  • — Organizations will be forced to reflect on their incentive setup and look for alternatives(the SV style stock options is one instead of promotions/bonuses) that encourage both collaboration and competition.
  • —- Organization sizes will need to be re-thought dramatically to build a new one.(For ex: last decade the “culture-fit” was a big thing in tech startups).
  • —- Around the world, economic Inequality will rise and keep rising to levels where social unrest is inevitable. Depending how each of the local leaders handle it we’ll either have a world-war comparable war between two big nations or a global revolution. Practically though I think our leaders will successfully keep blaming the causes on convenient and easy to exploit/silence/dominate small enemy neighbour countries.
  • —– Bio-terrorism will rise and come up as the newer threat to the survival of the species, though it will be lagging behind climate change based threat.
  • —– There will be a new market for services that have a lower carbon footprint(and another for services with high carbon footprint as a luxury/status symbol)… We will make some false starts towards carbon tax.
  • —– The natural disasters will become common(extreme forest fires, super storms, extreme heat and cold temperatures etc..).
  • —- Global agriculture will get into a big struggle and stress trying to keep the food production up.
  • —- Climate based migration will be a reality(it already is to some extent).
  • —- Society will go through another round of fractious minor struggles for resources and begin to find new tribes and tribal conflicts.
  • —- Countries, politicians and governments will be forced to use climate measures as part of their political campaigns in democratic countries.
  • —- The media will become more fractionated, opinionated and become more of political puppets for everyday election campaign style propaganda.
  • —- The stock market will keep growing via the current monetary inflation policy till one day it can’t go on and will collapse, but will slowly recover, with the “greener perceived” companies commanding higher premiums.
  • —- Food prices will skyrocket, hoarding will become common.
  • —- Software will evolve to also track power used by that application and it’ll become part of a feature
  • —- The Cryptomining industry will collapse.. especially “proof-of-work” based coins.. The “proof-of-stake” based ones will go on and enable new applications that have decentralization as the core feature.
  • —- AI will automate as many tasks as we can, but the humans’ whose job it is automate will evolve into more complex roles (in s/w move from writing code to writing specs like architect, and debugging devops, bug fixes etc..) .
  • —- AGI(Strong AI) will not be reached.. People will keep trying, some will claim Singularity is on the horizon, but there’ll be another boom and bust of funding in AI.
  • —- If we’re lucky, we’ll end up turning to nuclear power as the saviour for the world’s energy needs and try to convert the nuclear weapons into fuel.. If we’re unlucky this will happen only of after some of the weapons are triggered and used.
  • —- Healthcare industry will get a long-term research boost , but the operations part will still be driven by low-cost pressure from the insurance industry, jeopardizing the understanding and research is the long-term.(Of course, this is my philosophical stance, practice and theory can’t be too apart, you may disagree).
  • —– The big data + big tech warping the public opinion and media and via them the democracy will continue, powered mostly by advertising money, lobbying etc.. Eventually though, environmental activists will organize and buy the ad-space too.
Here’s the Answer:

It’s Niels Bohr. Here’s a goodreads link.

Coal-based working: hazards

The Faerie Queen had told me I needed to anchor myself.  Except I’d been doing that for a long time.  It was how I functioned.  Compartmentalizing, identifying a priority, devoting myself to it.  Surviving the bullying, the mission to turn in the Undersiders, the mission to save Dinah, to turn the city around, to save the world.  I’d had tunnel vision at the best of times, and I’d had both successes and failures.

De-personalizatien: Worm

I was still aware of my body, but it felt piecemeal, now.  My fist was shaking, I had my head bowed, my teeth clenched so hard against one another it hurt.  My heart was pounding, my breath coming out in inconsistent huffs through my nose, pushing just a bit of mucus free.  My eyes were wet with tears, but I hadn’t blinked, causing them to build up on the surface of my eyeballs.

All of these things were normal, but I didn’t feel like they were all intuitive parts of a whole.  My concept of my body as a connected thing had shattered, the ties broken

When we were waiting for the fight to start, I went around, looking for people I needed to thank.  Important people to me, people who I wasn’t sure I’d get a chance to talk to again.  I missed a few important ones.  My dad… you two.  I know the only reason I got my shot at being a hero, the only reason I didn’t go to jail, was because you vouched for me, because you agreed to cart me back and forth and interrupt your schedule.  I probably didn’t even deserve it, but you backed me up.  I’m just… I’ve never been good at saying thank you and sounding as sincere as I feel.”

The fire-fighting mistake

I always knew there was something wrong, underneath it all, but there were bigger things to focus on.  You finish dealing with one Endbringer attack or a potential war with parahuman attacks on both sides, it demands all of your focus.  You’re left drained, dealing with the event or the aftermath, and then you need to recuperate, you have an organization to manage.  There’s never a moment where you can stop, take a deep breath, and then say, ‘now is the moment where I address that nagging doubt I had the other day’.  Now is the moment I call so-and-so out on that less-than-complete truth they used while we were elbow-deep in Indonesian cyborg super-soldiers.”

Worm

Don’t tell me you don’t see a romantic element to all of this.  You wouldn’t dress yourself up like a gallant knight if you didn’t.  Good and evil, man and woman, physical and magical.  But we share common experience.  I bet you’d find more parallels if you looked for it.”

Who’s Taylor Hebert?

I asked, “You’re saying this me isn’t the real me, that it’s a product of the crisis?”

“You? Hmm…” Mr. Calle paused.

“Her behavior after her arrest was remarkably in line with prior behavior,” Glenn commented. “Including the, as you describe it, poorly-timed murder of two very notable figures, after she was provoked. Essentially word for word what Miss Militia had put in her file.”

“Point conceded,” Mr. Calle said.

“I’m not sure that’s how I want to be defined,” I said.

“Take it for what it is,” Glenn said. “You’re very scary when angry. Perhaps… now is the time to be angry?”

“Being angry at Scion is like raging against a natural disaster,” I said. “It doesn’t understand. It doesn’t react. My screams are drowned out in the chaos.”

“You weren’t screaming when you attacked Alexandria,” Mr. Calle commented. “In fact, I remember you were very quiet.”

I nodded.

“If you’ve decided who you want to be,” Glenn said, “Accept all of it. The good, the bad, the ambiguous. Vulnerabilities and strengths. The anger, that’s part of it. The fear for people you care about, that’s a strength too. Doesn’t feel very good while you’re experiencing it, but it’s a well you can tap.”

“Right,” I said. I thought of Charlotte and the kids.

Fuck, I didn’t want to fail here, to let them lose what they were building.

“And with luck, knowing who you are means not having to waste time and effort on putting up a facade. Maybe that extra time and effort you have at your disposal will make the difference.”

The worm

I held on. I could have gone on, told her that there were ways to cheat. That, with all the powers in the world, there had to be ways to cheat. But she didn’t need reassurances.

She was a master of bluffing, wore a mask better than anyone I knew, and she’d adopted her persona in a way that nobody else in the Undersiders or Wards had. In the midst of all of this, she’d been a pillar, a source that everyone had been turning to when they had questions.

But where was someone in that position supposed to turn to when they needed support?